I saw you today

I saw you today

I saw you today
It took me a monument
to realize it was you

Fresh as
If it was my first hello
Smooth
As water on a slip’n slide

I was back there
The days of
Simplicity and quiet gazes

No questions
No answers, either

My knee jerk reaction
Wanted to know you again
My past told me I already did.

I’m enamored
by your ability to hold me
Without ever reaching out

Yet;
Saddened by your ability
to set fire to a room
You never intended
To be in

You never owned your
Dysfunction,
you collected glitter
and wore it as
your charmed life,
rolled though me
Like a hurricane party
on nitro

You know
One day
You would be
Standing
In the place, that space
Only you would fill
Only you could fill

That day came
It was here
Before us
Playing out
Like it did
In my mind

No disappointment
No resentment
Oddly
It was joy

I saw you today,

No questions
No answers, either

My knee jerk reaction
Wanted to know you again
My past told me I already did.

I saw you, today.

[ – finn Perkins 2/18/2020]

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Another day I did not use algebra

….because,

some words, are harmful.
some words, are peaceful
some words, are unheard

these word must be read.

somedays are longer that others. the length of time is relative only to the minds in ability the release the unattainable love we seek.

we are awashed in stories,

tell us words that seek

….approval, not by a long shot.

somewhere in our human existence we equate approval with love.

the very definition of the word only leaves a yes or no outcome. no algebra needed.

just a clear bright sky to be there when the soul decides to offer up the ever elusive reasons for why it held out so long.

the x equals A. the y equals B and the total sums equals u

-finnperkins 2015.may.21

Nothing for granted

We
Always
Assume

We’re
Going
To
Wake
Up

….

Cover all unknown facts
Only one actually
Too much love for you, to not say it !

Souls defined

I do not think of where or when
I do know the whys and how’s

Undercurrent
Undertow
Anything
Unknown
Is more than I want to know

I can shake
The wherefore
The whatnots

It’s the belief
A time
An space
Is truly spent
In-line with
What we both have in mind

I will not place boundaries
I will not build fences
I will not ask
I will not judge
I will not fore-go
The realty of what I do know

the value of the time I’m in
Indicates whether I should actually care

After much thought
I find
I do care

……..

Weir•do

when you find people
who not only tolerate
your quirks but celebrate
them with glad cries
of “me, too” be sure
to cherish them. because
those weirdos are your
tribe

[unknown author ]

Calm Waters Run Deep

I could find a song
That offer most of the words
To describe
The mellow flavor
The easy mood
The intense fear
And most of all
The reality I awake too

I couldn’t find a that song
The words
Taste the flavor
The feel of the fear
Or the reality I awake too

It’s a spark
A word
A glance
A time
A place
Shared
That reveals
The reality
The here and now

I listen
I see
I embrace
And I for the most part
Know
I that’s it’s
You
clearly as sunrise
As definite as sunset
That
I will make
time for
Make space for
Make myself
Avail too

I could find a song
That offer most of the words
To describe
The mellow flavor
The easy mood
The intense fear
And most of all
The reality I awake too

I couldn’t find a song
The words
Taste the flavor
The feel of the fear
Or the reality I awake too

It’s a spark
A word
A glacé
A time
A place
Shared
That reveals
The reality
The here and now

I listen
I see
I embrace
And I for the most part
Know
I that’s it’s
You
clearly as sunrise
As definite as sunset

Calm as waters run deep

Keeping time

Somedays I think I can fly forever
No consequence
No reason to not

Somedays I see the very reason
I enjoy standing grounded
In the company of you

Many years
Of observation
Lead me to you
Lead me to me

From now
This point in time
I know
It’s as real as I want it to be

Somedays I think I can fly forever
No consequence
No reason to not

Somedays I see the very reason
I enjoy standing grounded
In the company of you

[- finnperkins . 06.27.2014 ]

Silent witness

FYI
… Your not doing your friend any good by letting them off the hook

Using catch phases that gloss over the reality that takes place day to day, some days less than others.

Hardest step a friend can take is the one to walk away, even though you know the person you care about is living with a human-time-b o m b.

You never know what going to set them off. All you can do is hope the person dealing with such a relationship ( bf, gf, family member etc) , will ask for help.

Imo –
If you witness someone being mean, please defuse it.

Remember being mean isn’t human.

Displaying bully-like behavior is not a mistake, it’s a way some people live.

[- finnperkins . 05.05.2014

Sitting in the front seat, yet, Worlds apart

I can own my words
Own my world
Move about in yours
Live daily
One thought
At a time

You can accept my words
Live in my world
You Move about
As if
You truly knew me
One daily thought at a time
Just enough
Just getting by

I can own my words
Own my world
Move about in yours
Live daily
One thought
At a time

No more yesterday’s
Will I throw away
No more
Because
I Can’t own my words
Can’t live in my world
…. Knowing you can’t own yours
Your words
Your world
No more time
Can I waste

I’ll be fine
Don’t spend the dime
Unless you can
Own your words

To be continued

Step up

Looking
Not really
Same thing
Different day

Saw you
A vision
Of imperfection
Looking for
sincere affection

Feel your groove
Steady
not contrived

I knew the from
the first words

Stay was all I heard

Hopes start
with a word in a book
Dreams grow from
memories read

Everything comes
Together
Like threading a needle

All come together
Come
Heaven or hell

Step up
Step out
Hold on
Hold tight
It’s your’s

All come together
Come
Heaven or hell

Let it be heaven
Let it begin
Healing
And holding
Step up
Step out
Hold on
Hold tight
It’s your’s

All come together
Come
Heaven or hell