I saw you today

I saw you today

I saw you today
It took me a monument
to realize it was you

Fresh as
If it was my first hello
Smooth
As water on a slip’n slide

I was back there
The days of
Simplicity and quiet gazes

No questions
No answers, either

My knee jerk reaction
Wanted to know you again
My past told me I already did.

I’m enamored
by your ability to hold me
Without ever reaching out

Yet;
Saddened by your ability
to set fire to a room
You never intended
To be in

You never owned your
Dysfunction,
you collected glitter
and wore it as
your charmed life,
rolled though me
Like a hurricane party
on nitro

You know
One day
You would be
Standing
In the place, that space
Only you would fill
Only you could fill

That day came
It was here
Before us
Playing out
Like it did
In my mind

No disappointment
No resentment
Oddly
It was joy

I saw you today,

No questions
No answers, either

My knee jerk reaction
Wanted to know you again
My past told me I already did.

I saw you, today.

[ – finn Perkins 2/18/2020]

Smiles for miles

I’m always chasing something, life, love and everything in between the waking and the sweet slumber of my young mind. Sometimes it’s nice the see a rainbow, no matter where it starts or ends… I smile for a long, long while.

“…Not to share that kind of love, that would be vain.”

Alive
Alone
Heading west
place I will call home
I took in the ocean
I felt a warmth upon my shoulder
it was a winter Sun, asking  “what took you so long?”
No love will ever wait in vain, it will shine through everything you do.
Not to share that kind of love, that would be vain.

as the sun came up this morning…

thankful for another day
cause I let yesterday get away
never knowing when to say the reasons
why everything i know of you
takes everything I have,
to stand beside you

wonder if i’ll ever get pass
that feeling from reeling
the not knowing
or the understanding why
the my reasons for not showing you
what it is to be
right by your side

will i be myself again
tell you that
your laughter holds me together
your smile gets me through
so many empty miles

wonder if i’ll ever get pass
that feeling from reeling
the not knowing
or the understanding why
the my reasons for not showing you
what it is to be
right by your side

standing inside myself
i can see all the possibilities
all the seasons changing
all my reasons changing
just inside those eyes.

Just inside those eyes.

© 2011 finnperkins

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