Smiling in fear ….

I am not looking
If I were , I’m not seeking perfect
I would embrace what comes my way.
I would like to think your actions
Were based on clear intentions verses, instant gratification , and my close proximity.

I’ve spent a lifetime being misunderstood. I’ve also spent equal energies to understand and define what it is in me that allows me without pause to tell a stranger I am in-discord with them/ their interaction; yet I am mute in my quest to be valid in my personal relationships.

I can take rejection. I am mostly in-fear of loss.

.., to be continued

[ – finnperkins . 04.06.2014]

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Sanity

If I said I can’t get you out of my head Can’t seem to sleep in my own bed

If I said I can’t seem to get beyond the subtle movements of your sway, which I do not  see everyday

Would know it if you felt it?
Feel it with your mind
The way I feel it in my heart
Would know it to be your truth?
Should you ignore the rules of your youth

I’m not saying you are the one
I’m not saying I am the one
I’m not saying yes or no

I am the one who feels like you
I am the one who feels it with or without you
I am  the one who voids my thoughts
Your friendship at this point, well it resembles livable sanity

May, I ask you..
Would know it if you felt it?
Feel it with your mind
The way I feel it in my heart
Would know it to be your truth?
Could you ?