living for the moonlight

Not looking for you
I’m not wondering
Why you were the one
to take my breathe away
Yet I’ve only known of you a day shy of 30

Could see the reasons why
My yesterday’s are never gonna be my tomorrow’s
Cause
You
Take away the sorrow
I promise I won’t wish away the days
Even though I’m living for the moonlight

Seems it easier said than lived
The love I’ve missed all this time was the love you had
The give

Sweet
Sunday

No more melancholy
Mondays

You
Take away the sorrow
I promise I won’t wish away the days
Even though I’m living for the moonlight

Seems it easier said than lived
The love I’ve missed all this time was the love you had
The give

Sweet
Sunday

No more melancholy
Mondays

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Just another date on the calendar

I guess I’m not good at overlooking the flaws of my parents. I spent my entire existence with two parent who were in denial of not only their flaws in their relationship, but also their inability to connect with their children.

Thankfully (even with Aspergers), I consider myself be self-sufficient , have a good self-esteem and most if all compassion.

When the special holiday(s), come around, I can not bring myself to celebrate such days.
I am who I am based on my choices and endeavors. I am only thankful for the paid air fair that got me across the pacific. I learned a lot from them by doing the exact opposite.

I know a lot of my peers feel similar, but are never able to break away from that sick obligation that we as children should honor thy father and mother. This may read harsh, yet it’s as true as I am standing on the beginning of this bright sunny day.

It’s compassion that keeps me here day in and day out to deal with their inability to face and deal with their aging.

I do not have happy stories of either parent. I wish I did. I grew up watching the Walton’s, Apples way, Eights enough etc., and that how I learned about what I wanted in my life. The kind of people to keep and the ones I have no clear reason to keep.

I had to vent now because the sentimental Father’s Day crap is going to be plastered everywhere. Expect on this page.

Grace/Peace Finn

Father’s Day

…. Feel it because its that week-end when everybody’s wishing wishes to everybody’s father but there own. It’s because your own wish is that your father is one of a kind.

A man of his word.
A person who’s life is a man among men.

One the legends were spoken.

A day that seem like more than a week-end. It’s a moment that last longer than his life time, because your still here, wishing he was here too. It one tough ass week-end.

Much love to you dear heart.

Enigma

Time
Roads
Trees
Latitude
Plateaus
Longitude
Against
Flow
Beseech you
Ebb
Not in tow
Not in little rows
Just enough
To see
All signs
Lead
To anything
Short of what
You know
So take it
Live
It
Cause
It’s
More or less
Fate
I don’t believe in coincidences
I do believe In you
Still
So let it grow
Ask yourself
It’s what you want
Believe in yourself
I did
I do
I haven’t left
I’m only
Stepping aside
Letting you
decide
Solidify
Your intentions
To yourself
Time
Roads
Trees
Latitude
Plateaus
Longitude
Against
Flow
Beseech you
Ebb
Not in tow
Not in little rows
Just enough
To see
All signs
Lead
To anything
Short of what
You know
So take it
Live

Clarity under a new sun

Drive
Fly
Walk
Stand
It’ll all the same
When your
Caught up in the game

Step off
Leave off
Let go
Forward
Living past
days of learning

finding out
where you are
Is where you’ve alway been

knowing this and Ignoring it
Is suicide of the soul

Hardly intentional
The leaving you behind
Wasn’t my plan to show my hand
But as you were searching
I was choosing
It’s when I stop thinking
I realize the clarity of
Your motivation was
Was all about you
Less about us

Drive
Fly
Walk
Stand
It’ll all the same
When your
Caught up in the game

Step off
Leave off
Let go
Forward
Living past
days of learning

finding out
where you are
Is where you’ve alway been

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